I’ve known for years that my wife has deeply desired, and even felt called by God, to adopt. Yet I could not see our family adding another child. We already have three wonderful boys and two dogs in a very cozy, cramped, and cluttered house. It just didn’t seem like a feasible option, nor a desirable one for me.
Even so, a couple months ago, I told Rosemary that I was ready to begin this journey of adoption with her. Despite my discomfort with this course of action, it had become clear to me that the Lord was strongly impressing on her to step out in faith and begin this process, and I should at least trust her enough to walk with her onto this misty road, even if I had not personally heard God speak to me on the matter. It probably wouldn’t work out anyway, and I would at least get some husband points in the process.
Well, that all changed yesterday.
Two nights ago, Rosemary and I attended an informational meeting on adoption held at our local Bethany Christian Services office. Both of us felt hope and faith in God’s plan and power stir in our hearts as we listened to the office director speak about the many aspects and tasks related to adoption. The next morning, I began to do some of my own thinking and research into this crazy idea of adoption.
It wasn’t long before God started throwing bricks at me, too.
First, He brought to mind several of the songs I have written over the past years. Since my first album was released, I have continued to write songs on an infrequent basis on various topics (corporate worship anthems, lullabies, Communion meditations, etc.). However, I was never able to string these pieces together into a cohesive musical tapestry. At least, not until that morning. All at once, I saw that the majority of these newer songs fit together within the themes of belonging, family, and togetherness. The overarching concept of dwelling place sprang into my head, and I realized that the pieces in this repertoire make up a fairly substantial collection . Toss in a couple adorable little tunes my boys have composed, and there is enough material for an entire full length CD — a CD that might help to raise money for an adoption! Astounded, I asked Rosemary and the kids what they thought of this idea. They were all excited and supportive, and suggested I look into it. Amazing! I had come to accept the likelihood that my recording days might be over, and I would never have hoped to undertake a project of such scope during this busy season of life. And yet, it seems that God may well have given me back this dream to use for this wondrous Kingdom journey with those I love the most.
A few hours later, I recalled how Rosemary had mentioned that we should write down the events of this remarkable unfolding story. She had suggested putting something online, perhaps on Facebook, and I had noodled the idea of chronicling our adoption journey on a blog. But what domain name (a.k.a web address) would we use for such a blog? Curious about what might be available, I browsed to my favorite domain name registrar and typed in a couple of possibilities. One of these was simply sonjaruth.com, a domain I was practically certain would have been snatched up after so many years of online property squatting, bartering, and profiteering in this wild frontier of the Internet. To my shock, sonjaruth.com was still available. Stunned, I quickly grabbed my credit card to make the purchase.
So, in a few short hours, God used music and technology, two of the most prominent facets of my life, to show me that without a doubt, He is behind this adoption pipe dream, and He is calling me to walk in it with my family. In this moment, the truth of this matter is clear and plain as day to me, and I feel a deep gladness and gratitude for such a wonderful part to play in this tale. Glory to God!